Updating here would take too long and to be honest, I'm not keen on the whole world knowing the ins and outs of my medical history. But I will say that I have been going through some very hard physical trials. I am waiting for answers right now.
I think we all think things in our minds and struggle with recognizing what is truth from God and what is a lie from Satan. When we can recognize the difference, we can "take every thought captive" and we can triumph! I'm sharing the exercise that helped me so much, and I hope that if it is meaningful to you, it will help you to do the same with whatever struggles you are going through.
/ TRUTH -
1) My family would be better off without me.
/ I am still a blessing to them, even in my weak state.
2) I can't handle it if I get worse.
/ God will give me grace and strength if that happens.
3) My children are suffering, my husband is burdened.
/ They are ok. God takes care of them. He has a plan for them too.
4) My life is getting smaller and smaller.
/ God is HUGE!
5) I can't do all the things I planned to do in my life.
/ God has a new plan for me. (New to me, not to Him.)
6) (related to 5) It will be disappointing. I'm missing out.
/ There will be joy. Surprises await.
7) I'm alone.
/ I'm never alone. I have God and I'm surrounded by a great team.
8) I am not myself.
/ I am a newly expanded "self".
9) I am my disease.
/ I am a child of God named Heather.
Do not think that I've got it all down and no longer struggle. I do mental battles with nearly all of these every day. It's better
since I took the time to write all of these down, but Satan still throws
these lies at me without relenting. But I am still fighting! And I know Who wins in the end!