Sunday, October 17, 2010

"God, Be Merciful on Us Mothers"

It is so, so, so hard to gain much spiritually while almost the entirety of worship services are spent training little ones. Up, down, up, down. Changing a diaper, taking the toddler to the potty (even though we went right before worship began), feeding the baby, picking up books the baby dropped, disciplining the toddler for dropping books because he knows better, disciplining the toddler for throwing a fit about the discipline received for dropping books, trying to keep the baby from turning around and making faces at everyone behind us, picking up more things the baby dropped, toddler will you PLEASE face front and stop biting your nails, and baby will you PLEASE stop squirming so much in my lap... oh, you need ANOTHER diaper change, that would explain it! Here we go again... up, down, up, down...

I know that I'm not the only one.

Still... it is draining. I'm feeling as dry as a dessert spiritually lately, which is part of the reason for this blog. Writing out a hymn, bit of scripture, or even just providing a bit of commentary on life helps me sort out my priorities. As morning services were ending today, I thought to myself, "God, be merciful on us mothers..." I feel like I've been coasting for too long, depending upon the years of study and devotion I was able to spend before I had children. Coasting just doesn't cut it though. Praying for manna and deep droughts of water to refresh my soul. I find it here and there. I'm living on those moments, and praying for mercy.

Psalm 32:1-2 - "As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God." (ESV)

Luke 11:9-10 - "And I tell you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened." (ESV)


  1. I totally sympathize, especially today. HUGS

  2. I was thinking about this today. Most of the time, the two older kids sit with an adult relative or friend during services, but tonight, they all were with me. It actually went really well. Of course, all 3 of them dropped something at one point or another. The oldest insisted on tearing a page out of the notebook, the middle girl accidentally spilled the pages out of her notebook (no wire binding), and the baby is just in a "mode" lately where he's needing more and more discipline on "being nice". Sigh. Oh to hear and follow along with an entire sermon again! Love to you!

    verification word: jacid - Please, jacid down!!

  3. M will often ask me what I thought of his sermon ... my reply is usually, what I heard of it, I thought was good. And I only have one monkey to wrestle!

  4. I feel ya! Potty visits and a squirmy baby seem to keeps me getting up and down continually. Our nursery has a speaker but there is something about being out in the auditorium with everyone else.
    Gotta say I laughed out loud when I read "dry as a dessert" No one likes a dry dessert.


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